DIdn they say that if u break a mirror u wld hav 13 yrs of bad luck? Well, i duno if i believe in that,but i felt tat it wld be true for me, even as i write my family r quarreling outside my slammed DOOR.Feeling tired,frustrated now, and speaking of that,i muz say that my emotions really changes alot. Today, if u guys rmb was christmas celebration for fellowship. Rmb the Cafe Latte cup i bought in malacca, was supposed to be for the gift exchange. However i like the cup so much tat i decided to keep it. So last night i was deciding wat present i cld give. My mum brought out a box of puzzle showing horses galloping on seawaves. Yes, the one that you gave me for my birthday last yr, edmund. well, so she wanted me to give that, hilarious. Laughed at her, told her that i cant exchange something in front of the person that bought it. My sister, quanmei was also exchanging presents the next day. It was a photo frame and a Japanese CD featuring instrumental Christmas songs from Daiso at IMM. So i managed to trick her into taking the puzzle for exchanging so I cld take hers. (Seriously, thought that the puzzle was ugly.)

That was yesterday. Today morning, my sister changed her mind, took back the present when i wasn't looking. I demanded it back, quarrelled. I won and left for church as I was in a flustered hurry. (Woke up at 9.00am to practise the songs for that day. Edmund lingshi, can't take it lightly, anyway he sounds stressed yesterday.)

Things began to perk up during the games and the gifts exchange. Well. after that things began to feel sombre for me. I don't know if it is the same with everybody or it is just for me, but whenever i get very active, two things happen. If you are in a very lame and crapping mode, either ppl around you get the 'disease' and begin to crap too and you get higher and higher. Or ppl around you stone, says things like 'lame lah' and dampen you down. The second option happened. It always happens to me all the time. And i got the usual MOOdy thing. so anyway i got moody, not surprising rite. yeah rite, mean lah you all. The mood last real long till 3.30pm, after i came dowm from the mu shi lou from hua ying choir practice.

I was tlking to corrine stellicia the two GRACE (which i shall from now on refer to yam and heah), veronica and yisin. corrine heah veronica and yisin were crapping and playing 2-0-5 [WATEVER.]. I stellicia and yam looked bored. I moved over to where alison and samuel were talking. I just sat in, you know wat i mean, listening. Talking a lot NS experience lah, funny conversation. They were both talking, laughing. Then they suddenly shoot some qns at me. I answered then they continued.

THen yam went on stage for 18/12/04 christmas celebration rehearsal. COrrine and the rest clapped and wooted. Eh... so the cheering up starts here. then they dragged Samuel into playing big fish small fish, he kena abt 5 times, ginny 10, stelly 6-7, alison around 6. I got none, pro rite? Yeah?

So anyway, after ginny kena 10times, everyone ended the game promptly. rushing to somewhere? dunno, so everyone went home, and i was by my lonesome self again. yam went home with her bag, violin case and prezzies (presents, cuter way of saying it). I didnt bother to help her. dun feel like it, in the dumps again.

Carried Jamin's bag and went to the music room, surprised to see the praise choir still in there. shortly after, most left for home except for me zehao edmund isaaclim and wong (tt's wat i wld refer to in the future too), and leawei. WE listen to zehao's rendition of 'longing', sounds familiar, shld be expecting scores from him this saturday 18/12/04.

My mood went down another level, edmund was ignoring me too, toking to the others. So i just listened to the music and all the while badgered by leawei. Well the music also adds to the mood doesnt it always does when you listen to slow romantic movie type of music?

Ok so i shant say anymore of the music room session, went home and guess wat? surprise, bed in a mess, rmb the morning incident? yeah, quarrelled with sister, so anyway she bu shuang and she tear down my make shift shelf above my bed. Only 5 ppl wld understand abt how complicated the shelf is, took me ages to think of and build it. Ok so you 5 guys rmb the circular mirror tt my sister gave me? Yep, the one with the picutre of some chinese garden behind. I took it and attacked the floor outside my sister's room. (My sister not back from sunday school yet)

Whoa, big reaction. My mum woke up, my sister, wanqin, came running. I shouted some very rude words and yeah that's rite, slammed the door.

My father came home, quanmei came home. THe two of them quarrelled.

Sad day huh? Cld conclude that. Tomorrow I'm learning violin from yam. That better be a gd lesson, I'm demanding a GREAT deal from myself.

Feeling sick and tired of being despised, beginning to hate the clowning traits i have, hating the way i acted. hated the way i regret after some words i said, and so most hating how i exactly i am.

Gorging on food now. Guess wat, the packet of fish murruku is finished. Isn't that great? guess since my night is already ruined, i might as well slp early.

GOing to miss the star awards tonight. Whole family is watching it now except me, sad rite? Wat's more, they have already cheered up, forget the incident, happily watching tv. Me? In my room, feeling sorry for myself, P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

well, if you guys are reading this, that means i had managed to post this on my blog. My computer is spoilt in case nobody cared to remember.

Wise words of the day: If you give time to God, He will give you double. (Quoted from Samuel)