this feeling, ever felt like this before? Sitting in the dark typing, thinking, pondering, trying to collect your thoughts and on the verge of tears?

loneliness. Suddenly found that the people around you have all ignored you? none have given you as much concern that you wish they had given you? so say they are not aware, that ignorance, staring at them chatting cherily with other friends. feeling lost, worthless, wishing that you could have done something. harsh words, false accusations.

could have ignored all of it completely, put up a brave front, get on with life but comon, are they going to leave you as you are?

no. life is harsh. here am i trying to engrossed myself in a whole new virtual life, resulting boredom, and greater realisation of loneliness. what works anymore? nothing works anymore, nothing.

"life could you be a little softer to me? softer softer.... softer....to me"