ya know. i wanted to type long blog entries, writing everything i feel within it and you know...just blurting everything out so everyone knows clearly wad i feel. but no. i hate to do that. for one thing it would probably turned out to be a composition of self pitying and why this why that. which isn't what i wanna record down anyway. so instead everything should be short concealing which i'm sure you guys would take it as some kind of advice i'm dishing out and you would prob go: oh another advice... uh huh...so? why are ya telling me this?