Fear of the Future..?

You are the one that always crush my pride...my confidence.

I'm a proud creature...and you know it, for i am your creation.

You are the one that make me doubt my own decisions, made me wonder where i should go, what i should do next.

Like a guided game of chess, you prompt me to make the right moves and you will always be there whenever i need your guidance.

you never fail to bring me back to you... always the worst of times, always the unexpected person, always words that affects me greatly.

I could be confident that i would be doing a single thing one moment and you could completely remove all my options and make me despair. And i would not know how to deal with it and with humility i finally turned to you... and you would give me your answer... always better than mine, always more, always promising.

Though i may not be sensitive to your grace at times but looking back, you always filled me with wonder. you worked through people, your wonders made me fear you, made me fear the future, of what you can do.....

...and it makes me wonder what i can do to be worthy of being your creation.